Melissa's POV

I woke up the next morning, the sun shone right in my eyes, and the annoying clock ringing. I groaned, I took my hand to my head. It hurt so bad, like a hammer crashing my skull. I whined and took the pillow over my head. I had done a stupid thing last night. But the rush of the alcohol was amazing. I felt something on it's way up my throat and I ran up of bed and hurried to my bathroom. I opened the toilet seat and throw up, all the alcohol came up and the taste of it was awful. When I was done sweat ran down my face, so now I know how a hangover feels and it's not nice at all. I flushed the toilet and washed my mouth. I don't remember much from yesterday, just a disgusting guy and Louis. That's all. I walked to the shelf and grabbed some aspirin, urgh this headache were killing me. But I knew I couldn't miss school, how much I maybe wanted to. I took a shower hoping it will make me feel at least a little better and get rid of the smell of puke and alcohol. I jumped out of the shower feeling just a little bit better, took my towel and wrapped it around my body. In the corner of my eye I saw something that shine, I turned my head slowly and saw my razor blade. I felt this feeling inside my chest, anxious. I had lots of scars on my arms and on my body, to cut was addicting you felt good when you did it but much worse after. Still I keep on doing it, i'm after the good feeling in the beginning. I picked up the razor blade and slowly putted it on my wrist. I did a quick motion and there it was, blood was dripping down my wrist my whole hand was covered of the red blood. I watched while the blood ran down the sink and I felt myself shaking and crying. This was a typical panic attack. I fell down on my knees sobbing loudly, shaking like a leaf in the stormy wind. After ten minutes of breakdown I finally went up and cleaned it of. I went out of the bathroom and picked my outfit of the day. I took my black ripped jeans, a t-shirt with the text ''I love you like zombie hearts'', a necklace my mom gave me I always worn it, my black hoodie, a black beanie and at last I put on my military boots. I grabbed my bag and was about to walk out my room, but then stopped. I didn't wanna face Annie, I didn't remember my homecoming yesterday but I was sure she saw it. So instead of walking out like I usually did I sneaked to my window and opened it. It was not that high so I could easily jump out. I throwed my bag out first and then I jumped out. I fast grabbed my bag and jogged out of there in the direction to the bus. This time I was on time, the old bus made a loud sound as it stopped. I went in and as usual Mr.Davies glared at me and I stuck my tongue out. I took a good look at the seats in the bus, students yelled loudly. It was almost like a zoo, i'm not kidding they were like baboons. I gave them a look with disgust in my eyes. When I was about to go for my regular seat in the back a girl catches my eyes. She was redheaded with freckles, green eyes. I saw as she tried to punch away the hands who was dragging her red curls. I sighed as I saw who the person that was bothering her were. James, Taylor's boyfriend. ''Damn ginger! We don't want gingers in our school'' He said as he took her hair and then did a face of disgust. The rest of the cult, as I called them, laughed and agreed. I am a pretty impulsive person so I walked straight to the seat next to the girl. James was sitting next to her, I stopped in front of him. He gave me an amused look. ''Oh, uglyface herself!'' I glared at him. ''James, you know how much I love it when you call me that. Now, be a good boy and go and bother someone who gives a fuck'' I gave him a smile. I acted like I didn't care, but the words these people called me everyday did hurt. I heard whistles and James stood up and shrugged. ''I don't wanna sit with the freaks anyway'' he walked back to his ''cult'' and I took the seat beside the girl. She gave me a thankful look and said ''Thank you'' I gave her a smile ''No problems, are you new? I haven't seen you before..'' I looked at her, I didn't trust easily but something in her eyes told me that I could trust her. ''Oh, yeah. I'm Cristie and I just moved here from Scotland'' A lock of her hair had fallen to her eyes and she put it back behind her ear. ''Nice to meet you Cristie, i'm Melissa and I am not from England either. I'm from Sweden'' Her eyes went wide ''Sweden? Really?'' She sat up straight and the excitement in her eyes was big. ''Well, yes'' I chuckled ''I have always wanted to go there!'' she screamed and then fast put her hands over her mouth. She looked worriedly over at James and Taylor. I followed her gaze and said ''Don't worry about them. They are hacking on me too. I will help you'' I leaned back. ''Thanks, they are really rude!'' She whispered loud but only I could hear it. I chuckled ''Dear, they are not rude…They are evil'' I closed my eyes and flashbacks washed over my brain. How they have tortured me since the first day I came here. I opened my eyes as the bus made a abrupt stop. Damn, Mr.Davies are really a bad driver. All of the students went fast off the bus, I looked out of the window and realized why they have rushed out so fast. On the bench under the big tree, just outside the school, was One Direction boys sitting. Me and Cristie jumped out of the bus. ''Hey, why is all gathered back there?'' Cristie said and pointed in the direction were the 1D boys sat. Before I could answer she shouted ''Omg! It's One Direction!'' She jumped up and down of joy. ''I have dreamed of meeting them for so long, come!'' She said and started walking but stopped when she noticed that I was not following. ''Aren't you coming?'' She raised her eyebrows. ''No…I…'' I stuttered. ''Come on! Don't you like them??'' Wow, she was such a fangirl! But I still liked her. ''Yes…But…'' I didn't got the chance to say anything more cause she was now dragging me across the field and towards the hop of people. I really don't wanna see Louis, I now he was at the club yesterday and I know our meeting will be awkward even if I don't remember what really happened yesterday. But I know he was there. Stupid me! Why did I have to drink so much!? I don't remember a thing, just a creepy guy and something with Louis. The mass of people was so thick we couldn't get through to the guys. A sigh of relief came out my mouth. I looked over at Cristie and a disappointment look was all over her face. She has dreamed of meeting these boys, I have also done that once. I felt sorry for her and took her hand and pushed through the crowd. ''Excuse me, coming through!'' I shouted and pushed everyone to the side. I know it maybe looked bitchy but for some reason I felt like Cristie was like a sister I never had and wanted her to meet her idols. Louis, Harry, Zayn, Liam and Niall all turned their eyes on us as we struggled to get through. We clumsy stumbled in the circle the people have created. For some reason I hated how they just sat there and was like 'hey look at us we're famous!' I rolled my eyes. Cristie's face went pale and her mouth formed as a 'o'. I pushed her gently in the back and gave her a look that said that she should go up to them and talk. She walked on shaking legs, I bit my lip and helped her walk. When we came there all she could say was ''H…h…h'' That was a try to a 'Hi' Dear lord this was awkward! ''Well, she wanted to say 'Hi i'm Cristie' '' I rubbed her back to get her to say something. ''Yeah…Hi'' She giggled. ''Well, hello Cristie!'' said Niall with a huge smile on his face. The rest of the boys greeted Cristie. I stood there and bit on my sleeve as they talked. I saw that Louis looked at me, I gave him a little smile and then looked away. I felt his looking eyes burning on me. ''Well, what's your name beautiful?'' I turned to look at Harry who was asking me. I was shocked that he called me beautiful. No one never has. I was just about to answer when a voice answered for me ''Melissa. Her name is Melissa'' It was Louis, he gave me a lovely smile. Harry looked at Louis and then back at me. Obviously confused. ''Do you know her?'' He asked, now looking at Louis again with a grin on his face. ''Well, yes. We have already met'' Harry smiled a big smile one more time showing off his amazing teeth. He got up and took my hand and kissed it gently. ''Hello, Melissa'' He said with a soft voice and winked with his eye. I felt myself blush, I couldn't help it. With what I remember of the boys I remember Harry was a flirt and I have to admit he is kind off charming. I saw Louis look at us, with a strange look on his face. The look looked like jealousy, but that was not possible. Or was it? I greeted the other boys too, and they were really nice actually. Liam reminded much of my brother, Zayn was not so quiet as I first think he would be and Niall was exactly like I excepted, carefree and full of happiness. The crowd started to disappear giving us the death looks. ''We're gonna have a movie night tonight at Louis' and Harry's place. Wanna come?'' Liam asked me and Cristie. ''Yeah, that would be so much fun! To get to know each other.'' Louis said putting his arm around Liam's shoulder. The other boys agreed. No, this was dangoures. I don't want to come to close to someone, it only brings pain. But the look on their face's and Cristie's… I just couldn't say no too that. ''That sound like fun!'' I said with a smile on my face. Confused about if the smile was real or fake. ''Great! We pick you up at six. Where do you live?'' Louis said. ''Universal House, 88-94 Wentworth Street'' I said and he nodded. I was about to say goodbye when he said ''Hey, can we switch number? You know if there's any trouble or something'' I gave him a cheeky smile and said ''Sure'' Louis and I switched numbers and Cristie and I said goodbye to the boys and walked to our first class. What have I giving me in to?

I stood there and just looked into his eyes. They were so beautiful. I felt a warm feeling in my chest and it spread into my whole body. No! I pushed the thoughts away, I could not feel any feelings like that. I don't deserve to feel happiness. So I just said ''I'm Melissa. Melissa Andersson'' He smiled an adorable smile. ''Melissa…It's a nice name!'' He winked with one of his eyes. I snorted ''No, it's not'' He just laughed. Dear god, he smiled so much so his eyes went more beautiful. How could that even be possible? I turned to focus on the painting on the wall behind him. So I did not got lost in his eyes. ''So, I don't know anybody here. Except the lads of course. So lets play 20 questions!'' He got excited, to get to know a new person. I looked at him like he was crazy. Nobody wants to get to know me. Let me say i'm paranoid and suspicious what people want. I sighed and said ''Fine, you start'' He looked pleased with himself ''How old are you?'' He leaned himself against the wall. ''16 and you?'' Wow, it was really a long time ago I read anything about them because I have forgotten how old he is. His eyes went a little bit bigger. ''I'm 20, turn 21 this christmas!'' I also leaned myself against the wall, but with a sigh. Why couldn't he just leave me alone. I don't wanna talk to him, not see his eyes. Because it only brought up one feeling, happiness. And like I said I don't deserve that feeling. He faked a cough and I turned to look at him. ''Your turn'' He gave me a look who said -go on- ''Umm'' was all I could say. What should I ask him? What shoe size he have? Haha, never. So I asked the first thing that came up in my mind. ''Why did you choose to come and study here? You will not be able to be alone.'' I crossed my arms. ''Well, we wanted to get a break from the music a while. And go and study feels important. It's gonna be difficult but we're gonna make it work!'' I bit my lip, like I always did when I was nervous or bothered. In this case, bothered. ''So, I hear that you're not from here. So where does this pretty lady come from'' I laughed a laugh without happiness to the ''pretty lady'' part. ''Sweden, is my english that bad?'' I focused on the painting again. ''No, it's not bad. You just have an accent who is not brittish'' I forced myself to look at him. ''Oh'' was all I could say. ''So Sweden, it's a nice country'' I nodded. ''Did you came here with your family?'' He smiled gently. I turned to look at the floor, it felt like a knife straight through my heart. ''I-i'm sorry, I gotta go..'' He looked confused. ''Did I say something wrong?'' I just shook my head and walked pass him. He called for me ''Melissa!'' But I kept going, with tears burning under my eye lids. As soon as I came out in the fresh air the tears streamed down my face. Why did he have to ask that question? I know it wasn't his fault he don't know, but still. I didn't feel for going back and continue with my classes so I went home.

I took up the key from my pocket and pulled it in the keyhole. Nobody was home at this time. I throw my bag in the hallway and ran up the stairs and walked in to my room. My room was nice a bed, a big shelf with lots of books, the family was so nice they bought me that old looking shelf with all my favorite books when they found out I loved to read. I had a desk too, to do my homework and write. I sat down on my bed pulled up my phone from the pocket, which was a challenge. Still no messages.. A tear rolled down my cheek, my dad never called not even texted me. He promised me to call me and text me. But he didn't and haven't done it since I came to this land. I have realized that he doesn't care about me, he never had. My dad and I never had a good relationship. I bet he also blames me for my mothers death and is happy to have gotten rid of me. My brother called me sometimes but he was a busy man, he worked a lot. But he did call me at least one time every week. But my dad, who I know is home all the time cause he is too old to work didn't called me at all. Didn't even text me. He did drive me to the air port in Sweden, that was the last time I ever heard of him. And that was a year ago. I laid down on my bed and fell asleep crying.

A couple of hours later I woke up and felt more down than ever. I decided to take a walk. I picked up my phone pulled it in my pocket and went down. I was about to pass the kitchen when I heard a voice ''Hey, where are you going? The dinner is soon ready'' Annie stood there with a spoon in her hand and had an apron on her with lots of flowers on it. ''Umm, i'm not so hungry and I thought about to take a walk. If I get hungry I will find a place to eat'' I smiled one of my fake smile. ''Don't be late'' She pointed a warning with her spoon at me, but she smiled. I went out of the door and stood on the doorstep and just took a deep breathe. Then I walked, I walked pass many stores and did the ''window shopping''. It got me thinking of something else. Then I came to a club, I stood and stare at it. I was 16 and would not get in there, but I got an idea. I sneaked as close I dared and observed the guard. Hmm, how did I distract this guy. He was huge and had a bald head, a typical guard. I picked up a stone whispered ''Sorry'' and throw it in a window. The shattered glass made a loud sound and the guard went over there. Now, now I got my chance I ran towards the entrance and slipped in. The music was so loud in here the base made my heart almost stop. But I liked it everyone danced close to each other to Wild ones by Flo Rida and Sia. I smiled and walked towards the bar, I took a seat and just watched the sea of people grinding and humping each other. Gross. The girls looked cheap in their short dresses and the almost showed everything. The guys had a horny glimpse in their eyes. I shilled. A drunk voice interrupted my thoughts ''Well hello there'' I turned to look at the person who had talked. It was a guy probably around 25 years old, his sand brown hair was a mess on his head and his face shine of sweat. ''Can I buy the lady on a drink?'' I hesitated just a second. ''Sure'' I turned around in my chair so I now faced the bartender. He looked at me with a suspicious look. ''Something strong'' The guy said to the bartender and he did as he said. ''What's your name baby?'' He gave me a disgusting look. ''Melissa'' I said and took the drink. ''I'm Tom. Cheers!'' I swept the drink fast, it was so disgusting. But the rush was amazing. ''More?'' Tom asked me. He was so drunk that it looked like he would pass out if he took one more. ''Sure!'' I said and laughed a drunk laugh. Tom bought me many drinks and I was so drunk that I laughed at everything. ''Come, we dance!'' He shouted. He took my hand and lead me to the dance floor. We started dancing, he came closer to me and putted his hands on my butt. I didn't like that but I was so drunk. After dancing a while he pulled me to the side and dragged me to the bathroom. There he started to kiss me, on the lips, on my neck pretty much everywhere. He pushed me up against the wall. I realized where this was going cause he pulled his pants down and started to drag my pants of. I tried to pull away but he was to strong. I shouted ''Get off me!'' I struggled in his grip. ''You will like this'' He said in a disgusting voice. I got my arm free and slapped him. He took a harder grip and took a grip around my neck. He looked me in the eyes. ''Your little whore! I will fuck you and you will like it!'' He started to touch my intimate area and I screamed for help. I didn't noticed that someone had come in but I saw someone in the side of my eye. I turned to look to see who it was, it was Louis and he was on his way here. His face was angry, his whole body language was angry. Louis took a grip of Toms shirt and pulled him away. I fell down to the floor. He pushed him into the wall. ''Leave her alone!'' He yelled. Tom looked up at him and laughed ''The little whore liked it, didn't you saw'' Louis started to shake of anger. ''I said leave her alone! If touch her again or call her a whore one more time I will seriously beat the crap to of you! Now go!'' Louis stood close to Tom and yelled in his face. Tom looked scared now. He ran out of the bathroom. Louis turned and looked at me. ''Are you okay Mel?'' He said with a worried face. I didn't get why he looked so worried we didn't know each other and have only spoken once. He came closer to me and offered his hand to help me up. ''Yeah, I'm fine thank you…but'' I looked and there was two of him. ''But?'' He asked ''Do you have a twin? There is two of you!'' Now he looked more worry and grabbed my hand and pulled me up. I was dizzy and couldn't walk straight. ''No, you're just drunk let me walk you home'' I started laughing as he lead me out of the club. ''Where do you live?'' He asked me when we had gotten out. I pointed in the direction and we started walking. We had to stop now and then because I had to puke. Everytime Louis held my hair back. We got to my house and he led me in. Annie's face went up when she heard the door got open. Her eyes went big. ''Dear God!'' She ran towards us. ''What happened!?'' She turned her eyes on Louis. ''She's drunk'' He said and looked at me. If possible her eyes got even bigger. ''I'm tired!'' I complained. ''I can put her in bed'' Louis said and Annie nodded obviously worried. Louis lead me to the stairs but I had a hard time finding the first step. Suddenly I felt a pair strong arms around my legs and he pulled me up in his arms and carried me to bed. He laid me on my bed and helped me to get my clothes of. I giggled at that. He also helped me to get my pajama on. I felt the tiredness took over so I passed out.

Louis POV

She had passed out and laid and snored a little. It made me smile a little, I laid over her a blanket and stroked her chin. She was so cute now when she slept. She was always cute though. I smiled again, I like this girl. No! I have a girlfriend and she is 16! I shouldn't think like that about her. And I didn't know her. I turned and went out her room. The woman who had talked to us before was probably her mom. I said that she now slept. She thanked me and I went out and home. My feelings was confused.

After I had brush my teeth and taken a shower I went out in my bedroom again. I opened the door to my wardrobe and sighed, it was this moment when you don't know what to wear even if it's plenty of clothes in your wardrobe. I grabbed my ripped jeans, a t-shirt and my beloved hoodie that I always wore. Before I leaved my room I took the hoodie over my head, there…safety. I always felt safe under the hood, like I protected myself from the world. At the same time I walked down the steps, have to add that I walked really slow like a sloth, I thought about the sight I had seen in the mirror. My face all pale, dead pale and the dark shadows under my eyes that witness about that I didn't slept well. It looked awful, I looked like a vampire. But I didn't care really, didn't care about my look. Back in Sweden I have learned that no matter what I did to ''improve'' my look it wasn't enough. They still thought I was ugly, shallow bastards! So I have given up improve my look, because it didn't matter. Don't get me wrong, I clean myself and keep my hygiene. I entered the kitchen and took a seat with the family, it smelled bacon and egg. I have problems with the eating part so I just took a small piece. ''I heard that the school have a big surprise for the students today'' Annie said with a smile. ''I'm not really into surprises..'' I said and played with the bacon with my fork. Annie sighed and said ''I bet you will love this one'' her smile had grown wider. ''I doubt it'' I muttered. I had just taken small pieces into my mouth of the bacon. I laid the fork down and watched the time on my phone. Shit! 7.30 the bus went 7.45! I was late. The only way to get to the bus was running and I had no good condition. ''I gotta go!'' I said and was up from the chair in a second. I grabbed my bag and hanged it on my shoulder and went out the door. I ran as fast as I could. I was getting close now, I saw the red bus but it was taking off. I know how that bus worked cause I go with it everyday. So I know that, that bus had problems with getting up speed in the beginning. I yelled after it ''Hey!! Stop!! I gotta get on!'' The bus still kept going. I was at the bus now and became so angry of that mean driver so I kicked really hard on the bus who still was moving and shouted ''God dammit, stop!'' I don't know what I was thinking, noway he will stop now. Not after I kicked his bus. The bus kept moving and I stopped. But after a couple of meters the bus went still. I ran and went on as fast as I could so he didn't drive away. The driver Mr.Davies gave me a glare and muttered ''You damaged my bus, damn kids these days'' I glared back and said ''Well, maybe you should have stopped in the first place'' Mr.Davies was known as a total douche. I walked pass all the seats and students glared and whispered. I found my ordinary place in the back. I plugged my earphones in and started Kent - Töntarna. It was a swedish band, the best band Sweden had. I closed my eyes and rested my head against the window.

I walked towards my school, I hated school. But I had to admit, this school was beautiful. It looked like an old castle. I love old things, a thing I got from my mom. I opened the big doors and went in. I spotted Taylor and her followers, my bullies who seemed to love to make my life to a living hell. But my locker were in the end of the corridor so I had to walk pass them. I started to walk pretty fast and when I thought I was safe a leg came out in front of my legs and I fell down. All my books in my bag fell out and laid now in a total mess over the floor. Taylor's hand went up to her chest and burst out ''Oh dear, I didn't saw you coming'' Her fake worried faced made all of the others laugh. I collected all my books and put them in my bag again and got up. ''You maybe should go and check your sight. You may need glasses'' I said and walked away. She shouted after me ''You do the right thing to hide your face under that hood. You are so ugly that everyone would puke if you hadn't it on'' The last thing I heard before I opened the door to my classroom was the laughter of half of the school.

Two hours of mathematic, dear god. I felt dizzy and ill. It felt like I was about to throw up. But I pushed it all aside and tried to focus on the class. The principals voice through the speaker stopped the class. ''All students to the hall!'' All students looked on each other, whispering. I waited to go til all the students had gone through the door. Then I went up and followed. The hall was a really big room, lots of seats. It was the place the school did all the plays and music performance. As usual I took the seat in the back, I liked the back seats. No eyes on you. Principal Moore was in his 50's I supposed because of his bald head. He only had hair on the sides. But he was pretty tall. He was now on his way up on the stage. He took out his handkerchief, which he always had on him, and wipe up his sweat of his forehead. ''We have special guests here today, they have decided to study here in one year'' Ha! They must be really special, there are guards standing in front of the stage. Ridiculous. ''To all of the girls, please take it easy…'' All the girls gives each other an confused look. He went on ''Let me introduce… One Direction! Liam, Harry, Louis, Niall and Zayn!'' All the girls went crazy as they came out and entered the stage. They waved and smiled big smiles. Now I get it why the guards stands there, because all the girls went up and ran towards the stage. This is crazy, the girls act crazy. I stayed in my seat, calmly, I was a directioner once, they were my biggest idols. But as you know I quitted with everything when my mom died. I haven't read anything about them in a year. So I didn't know what's happened in their lives. Not like I care, I didn't care about anything these days. ''It's really great to be here! And we are looking forward to study here a whole year!'' Said Liam with a happy face. I took my hand for my head. All this screaming…It made me all dizzy. I ran out of the hall and walked quickly to the ladies room. I went in and took some water to my face and then I went down the wall and just sat there. Why did they decide to study on a school like this. It will be crazy, they will never be alone. It was dumb in my opinion. I sat there a long time, but now I have to get up so I did. Went out, and was about to walk pass the boys bathroom door when it went up fast and knocked me so hard that I fell back and landed on my bum. ''Oh, dear god!'' I heard some one say. The voice pretty similar. A hand came in sight ''Here, let me help you up'' I grabbed the hand and I flew up. ''I'm so sorry, are you okay?'' His voice sounded worry. Strange no one is ever worried about me. ''Yes, i'm fine'' I took the time to look who the boy was. In front of me stood the most gorgeous boy I have ever seen. Those eyes, his hair and that smile was to die for. ''I'm sorry, I didn't got the chance to introduce myself. I'm Louis. Louis Tomlinson''